You might have noticed the new link for Fertility Associates which has appeared on the right (if not ...guess what?? There's a new link to Fertility Associates on the right!!). If I haven't cocked it up (it's highly likely that I have, so I'll have to check as soon as I post this), the link will take you straight to a short profile on my specialist, Freddie Graham, who I will be seeing next Tuesday.
We were going to be going to a seminar tomorrow night with Fertility Associates on fertility treatments and counselling etc which I was quite looking forward to. Al saw it advertised in Thursday's paper, and I left a message with them on Friday. I thought that it would be good to gather all the information, and process it a bit before seeing the specialist on Friday. But (there is always a 'but' with this business!!) when I followed up on the message this morning it seems that by Thursday (when the ad was published) the seminar was already full! They had 60 people for tomorrow's seminar, and 20 on a waiting list for the next one which hasn't been set yet. Is it just me, or is that a scarey number of people who can't make a baby on their own?
As odd as it may sound, I think it's only just hit me that we really have to do this. I feel like I've just fallen over and hit reality-pavement face first. The whole fertility treatment and specialist thing has been hanging there in front of us for a while now, but it still wasn't really real to me - it was something that was in the future ...a back stop for if our miracle didn't happen. I don't know that I had really accepted that there were no miracles to be had for us. I guess I honestly thought that there'd be an eleventh hour 'surprise' and we'd be saved from all this. This is not how it was supposed to be at all and I don't want to do it this way. I really don't.
Still, perhaps the journey will be a short one. That'd be the next best thing.
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